August 21, 2009

Identity Crisis

Pin It now! as much as i'm excited to be M's wife and take his name, i didn't realize i would be as anxious and sad as i would be to change my name. i just got back from the social security office to get a new SS card issued with my new name. while i was signing the form, a tiny wave of anxiety washed over me. i questioned whether i made the right decision to change my name and that maybe i could go back and change my marriage certificate. i've been me for the last 30 years! now as i move on to the next part of my life, i feel like i'm leaving a part of me behind. it's especially hard since i had a chinese last name and now it's italian. everyone tells me that i'm the same person and that i'll always feel like an "eac", but i've lost all the chinese-ness in my name. i know things will feel more comfortable as time passes. M has been very supportive and has no preference on whether i change or not. for me, it's a personal choice and i think it's important. it's another step of commitment. ask me next year how i feel...

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1 comment:

Megan said...

I know exactly how you feel. I really struggled over changing my name. It felt almost like cutting off an extremity!